Wednesday, March 26;
7:47 PM
yup.. today finally is a day of this weekend when i am finally free.. but... because of the rehearsal i had to come home late..
I had a mixed emotion on the way back home... tears almost come rolling down.. well.. but i '
ren' so i didnt .. well.. anyway feeling better le..
I dunno why but back then a struck of loneliness came over me.. i guess cause no one was there to
accompany me? dunno.. well.. lucky a junior of mine came over to chat with me.. well didnt know that there was a lack of interaction btw them... hmmm.. haha.. and i was quite surprised about how she told me about them about back stabbing.. wow.. thats was a surprised indeed..then we chat about studies and all.. then she left as she was supposed to get ready soon..
Saw a few of my friends.. yup.. chat abit.. yup.. well the teacher was pissed up with my so called 'irresponsible' of not finding my seat when i did ask a few teachers where i was sitting..and all told me that there were in charge of lower sec.. =.='' felt so neglected.. was it because i am just a NA student? or what.. it seems that the teachers are also smiling to see the jc students coming back.. i know.. i am not saying all the teachers.. but well some i guess.. i sometimes wonder if like what they say.. we are just rotten apples? ok. i am not putting myself in this mindset.. but ya.. i do wonder sometimes.. but i am very glad and appreciate to know that some teachers are willing to help these "rotten apples" of us...
i just sat quietly. it was so boring and the clock was ticking slowly as the time pass by..
To be frank, i found that it was quite a waste of time..
My phone kept ringing through out the rehearsal, i thought he called.. later that after finishing the performance i sneak into the bathroom and saw that there was a total of 6 miss call.. hmmm.. a message from a teacher.. and the rest were from my dad..when i went back up.. a teacher whom i dunno approach me and ask me if i was xueyan.. and i said yes.. then she said she was looking for me and thought i have went back home and had called my dad.. =.='' and i was like dots.. i was like been sitting there without the teacher knowing who i am..then she told me i could go home.. so i was like ok then i went off.. its like so dots..
i hate being alone..
but i promise that i wont let it to conquer me..
it has been quite some time i had this feeling..
sigh.. i am like so irritated by this system..
i really cant wait to finished my 'o' level and leave this sch..
yup.. and i miss him.. must jia you at work worx.. today working full shift.. haha.. cant wait to cya on sat =)
sry if some people dun like this post.. just writing what i think.. i am not saying all the teachers but only some.. haha.. its only after today this is what i thought...
♥Clear skies will mean you are happy.♥
♥Rain will mean you're crying.♥
♥Sunset means you are embarrassed.♥
♥Night will mean you are gently holding me♥
Pass my 'N' levels with high high results 
Pass my 'O levels with flying colours and go to poly